1995: I drink coffee at various poetry readings. Because I am sixteen and all grown up and awesome. Also my hair is black and I have written some very bad poetry.
1996: I realize that I feel like crap after drinking coffee. Decide that drinking hot chocolate or tea instead is charming.
1999: Begin dating a total coffee addict. Commence 11 years of teasing him about this addiction.
2005: Discover chai. OMG CHAI. Chai makes me productive! And happy! And chatty! Wheeeee!
2006: Get pregnant. Give up chai.
2010: Give birth to second child. Discover that a frappuccino in the early afternoon makes me a nicer mother. And a vanilla latte in the morning doesn’t hurt either. But I only drink fancy coffee that I buy when we’re out.
2011: Begin to understand the beauty of Brian having his own espresso machine. Refuse to let him see how much sugar I put in my cup. Also refuse to learn to use the machine myself, so that I won’t drink too much coffee.
9:00: Brian leaves for work without making coffee. Gives me brief instructions on how to use espresso maker.
9:02: Stare dubiously at espresso machine. Decide it might be a good day to try giving up coffee
9:30: Adriana asks at breakfast, “Why don’t you have your coffee?” When I tell her that Brian didn’t have time to make it before he left, she asks why I don’t just make it. I explain that I don’t know how, and she says, “I do. I could make it for you.”
10:15: Wonder about this no coffee experiment. Consider trip to Starbucks. Decide I don’t feel like getting the children into shoes. Determine that skipping coffee makes me a Better Person.
10:20: Okay, maybe not a Better Person. But healthier.
10:30: Maybe if I’m being so healthy I should go for a run. Could put baby in the stroller and Adriana on her bike and get some exercise.
10:31: Oooh, could run to Starbucks!
10:32: Oh. Right. HEALTHY.
10:35: Do we have any cookies left?
10:40: Maybe the kids won’t notice if I lie down here for a few minutes.
10:41: Oh. They noticed.
10:50: My head hurts.
11:15: Maybe a Coke? I think we have Coke in the garage. That will make me feel better.
11:16: Okay, but all that HFCS and coloring...That’s not healthier. This is supposed to be making me healthier.
11:17: But what about my mental health?
11:18: I DON’T NEED CAFFEINE.
11:30: “Adriana? Do you really know how to make the coffee?”
11:32: “First you put in three scoops of the beans. Then you turn it upside down after you grind them. Then you put them in that round thing. And then there’s the rattle thing that doesn’t rattle. Push them down with that. Don’t forget to put in the water. No, you unscrew that thing at the top to put in the water. And then you put it back on tight. Dad says really tight. Okay, and then you let me press the button to start it. Then you get the milk out.”
11:40: OMG COFFEE.